Except in the ways that matter most, K can't help but think, even now. The affirmation is going to take a while for him to really process and let sink into his consciousness, when his human-made programming prevents him from believing it about himself. But he can at least believe that Tech Boy believes it.
That the god holds him in such high esteem â and even more incredibly, loves him â means absolutely everything to him, and between their silent exchanges and the words that were spoken aloud, K's expression is becoming dangerously watery from how overwhelmed he feels. It's the look of someone who doesn't quite know how to cry, and doesn't fully understand the intensity of his own emotional response. Soon he's ducking his head to hide his face against Tech Boy's neck again, this time smiling, and winds both arms around him to hold him tighter. It will be a few more moments before K finds his voice. ]
That's all I want. To be yours, and you to be mine.
[ And for neither of them to be bound to humanity or reliant on them for survival, though he knows that isn't as easily accomplished. But they have each other. They can continue figuring it out together. Of more immediate relevance is making sure they're still on the same page about the trajectory of their relationship; this conversation has him thinking about one of the finer details in particular. It has hardly sounded like Tech Boy misses how his life used to be, but K would rather know for certain what his feelings are than assume. ]
Is this still what you want? With me. [ A moment of thought before he clarifies, ] With just me, I mean. [ He begins lightly stroking Tech Boy's lower back with a hand, and there's a warm sensation of amusement curling through their connection as he's remembering their first conversation about monogamy. ] If you haven't grown tired of my naked jazz repertoire yet... [ Then he sobers. ] Or do you need more than what I can give you?
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Except in the ways that matter most, K can't help but think, even now. The affirmation is going to take a while for him to really process and let sink into his consciousness, when his human-made programming prevents him from believing it about himself. But he can at least believe that Tech Boy believes it.
That the god holds him in such high esteem â and even more incredibly, loves him â means absolutely everything to him, and between their silent exchanges and the words that were spoken aloud, K's expression is becoming dangerously watery from how overwhelmed he feels. It's the look of someone who doesn't quite know how to cry, and doesn't fully understand the intensity of his own emotional response. Soon he's ducking his head to hide his face against Tech Boy's neck again, this time smiling, and winds both arms around him to hold him tighter. It will be a few more moments before K finds his voice. ]
That's all I want. To be yours, and you to be mine.
[ And for neither of them to be bound to humanity or reliant on them for survival, though he knows that isn't as easily accomplished. But they have each other. They can continue figuring it out together. Of more immediate relevance is making sure they're still on the same page about the trajectory of their relationship; this conversation has him thinking about one of the finer details in particular. It has hardly sounded like Tech Boy misses how his life used to be, but K would rather know for certain what his feelings are than assume. ]
Is this still what you want? With me. [ A moment of thought before he clarifies, ] With just me, I mean. [ He begins lightly stroking Tech Boy's lower back with a hand, and there's a warm sensation of amusement curling through their connection as he's remembering their first conversation about monogamy. ] If you haven't grown tired of my naked jazz repertoire yet... [ Then he sobers. ] Or do you need more than what I can give you?